Wednesday, August 27, 2014
week 2 of my 3 weeks vacation and I have to say, it's been the most active vacation of mine in I believe forever!
wanted to use my time off to win some trophies I didn't have on Nike Plus with my Fuelband and so far so good! :)
managed to earn 6k Fuelpoints all week last week so that gave me a trophy. This week I'm aiming at 8k all week. Already got 2 days with 10000 Fuelpoints which were my very first and second time ever! :D so new trophy for 10k, working on another trophy for a full week at 8k or over.
so yeah, running almost every day + biking and walking sometimes. so I'm pretty dead at the end of the day. lol
saw my therapist a couple of times and we're still in the "getting to know each other" phase so I'll see how my therapist really is after that... so far it's ok, just feels good to be able to vent to someone without fearing judgement or worrying about creating a conflict.
I'm a bit worried about how I'll manage to stay as active once I get back to work. I know it'll be different but I can't say I'm looking forward to how challenging it's going to be. I'm slowly working my way on being able to bike to work. I'm aiming for next summer.
I see my trainer on my first week back at work and I can't wait. I'll ask him to tell me my weight this time cause I really wanna focus on getting under the magic number where my life insurance is applying a surcharge because they say I'm too fat! pffff
My personal doctor is finally back from mat leave... so I managed to get an appointment for my annual exam which didn't happen this year... appointment is for january! only good news about that is that it's giving me more time to get as close to 200lbs as I can if not under.
I'm pretty sore from all the activities, but I'm getting more used to it and I can finally see myself being that active and reclaiming my body, my health, my fitness.
will try to post again soon to talk about my new favorite book : "Body by you" by Mark Lauren which is precisely what I needed in my path of being gym-free and use own body exercises. :)
Thursday, August 14, 2014
Yes I'm excited!
So excited that I left home to bike to the train station without my bike lock lol
Didn't have time to go back home so I pretended to lock my bike with a lock thats been tied to the bike rack forever. I just got the lock through my front wheel and around my water bottle rack and then I texted my partner asking if she could do me a huge favor by biking to the train station to lock my bike lol
Super busy day but I got over it. Tomorrow morning will be busy but will be coasting after that cause every assignment will be met with : "is it something that I can do today?" If not, "can it wait 3 weeks?" And if not then I'll gladly transfer it to someone else :)
Very tired lately. Not sure I got over the exhaustion of my first one on one therapy session. Looking forward to the other ones especially since I won't have to work afterwards!
Really not looking forward to the kids being back tomorrow. I know it's selfish but I wish I could have taken my vacation earlier. Since I was the last one I ended up with what was left with the consequence that the kids will be done working at camp.
OK so it's not all bad. Only one lives with us now and he has a bunch of plans that might mean he's going to be away for most of my vacation. I do love him a lot and wouldn't hesitate to give my life for his but when he's around he just does whatever he wants whenever he wants so that means loud music, playing video games or piano or having loud friends over whenever when its not being loud coming back home in the wee hours of the morning or getting lucky... so I don't really fell like I'm home...
Oh well let's not anticipate too much lol
I already know I'll most likely go for a run or to the gym when they get home to leave them the whole floor to tell their tall tales to their mom.
Yeah sometimes I do wish I was single or with a partner who doesn't have children. Hopefully it's not too often and doesn't last too long.
I'm on my way to work. Only today and tomorrow left before 3 weeks off so I'm pretty excited.
Ran 3 miles Tuesday (the Nike plus running app doesn't seem to allow you to switch to km :()
Also had my first session with the therapist. It went well. I cried most of the session but it felt good to release all that, to be able to talk to someone without fear of judgement.
The first 2-3 sessions are spent getting to know me. After that she'll tell me what she sees and we'll discuss what we want to work on.
It made me realize I'm pretty isolated. Ever since I've stopped organizing things to see my friends nobody has taken over so I'm not seeing anyone. I'm not sure if it's me or if I just can't seem to be able to find good friends. (As in people willing to come see me instead of always being me who goes out of my way to see them)
Sure I've got a couple of coworkers I see outside of work for a happy hour once in a while but nothing else. Makes me miss my messageboard/chatroom/Paltalk days a bit...
The motorcycle will change that a bit next year since I'll be able to plan rides with a couple of coworkers.
Feels good to start being active again. I'm planning to kick it up a notch or two during my vacation hoping some of it will stick once I go back to work...
The kids are coming back from camp tomorrow. Not really looking forward to that. They're always hyper and loud and as usual I'll just have to find a corner to hide in so the one who ates me doesn't get too annoyed by my presence.
I'm pretty fed up with that arrangement and ended up being pretty vocal about it last time. My partner is finally getting ready to have serious talks with her kids. I'll see where I go from there. It's hard cause I just wish I never saw the one who hates me ever again but that's not going to happen. And even if that one started being nice to me I still wouldn't want a relationship with that one. So there's no way out really and it's frustrating.
And no, we didn't even get to that discussion with the therapist. But she knows I struggle with one of the stepchildren and it's a source of conflict with my partner. So we'll get to it eventually.
Sunday, August 10, 2014
Before my vacation! Can't wait!!
Yesterday my partner and I biked over 50k to visit my parents. We slept there and biked our way back home today.
Went very well considering we took turns pulling Hector but we're pretty tired today!
Got my laundry done so the rest of the day will be spent resting so I can survive my week at work lol
Tuesday night I went to the Rogers Cup to see Genie Bouchard's homecoming. Too bad she lost but the night was full of action as they had a major power outage so it was old school tennis with no scoreboards, no replays, no mic working for the ref! Lol
Fighting the urge to nap to catch a glimpse of Venus and possibly Roger's match.
I wanna start running regularly again this week. Got my eye on 3 Nike fuel trophies I'd like to get my hands on during my vacations :)
Monday, July 28, 2014
Got motorcycle probs on the way. So wasted 150$ on Lewis Black tix without making it to the show, 100$ on towing and 100$ on garage fees.
That's what happens when your coworker buys a used motorcycle and doesn't get it inspected or anything before lending it to you...
Oh well. They suspect it is the side stand's sensor that is defective. They recommended changing it but I'd have to bring the motorcycle to a Ducati dealer for that so they at least cleaned it up and it hasn't been a problem so far...
Spent most of Saturday riding with my coworker. My wrists were sore afterwards! Lol
Next up is escorting her to her road test this week and possibly riding with her over the weekend. I bring the motorcycle back to its owner next week.
Overall I'm very happy with how it went. It's just that now I know what I want and it ain't a Ducati... :P
+ since it's not my bike it's not like I could customize it to make it more comfortable for both me and my partner to ride together.
Eagerly waiting for next year!!
Food wise it's been so-so. Gym wise not much. Trying to get back into some kind of routine before seeing my trainer next week.
+ I have started the process to consult a therapist to help me with my emotional eating. We'll see how that goes but I'm very optimistic and looming forward to this new step in my journey. :)
Wednesday, July 23, 2014
Hector!! (See picture below)
We got him a couple of weeks ago. Not sure why we named him Hector. All I know is it started on the bike ride to bring him back home. Because the trailer was empty, it was flying all over the place whenever I hit bumps and since cars kept slowing down thinking we were pulling kids my partner started yelling "careful with Hector!!" Whenever my bike was hitting bumps lol.
We looooove Hector! Takes a little getting used to but it's expending the options of our car-free experiment exponentially!
Last weekend was our first trip to Ste-Anne-de-Bellevue with Hector. I pulled it empty on the way there, my partner pulled it full lost of the way back. I took over for the last couple of hills.
Whenever we're not pulling the trailer we feel like we're flying on our bikes lol. So it feels like it is a pretty good strength workout :)
Tomorrow night we're off to see Lewis Black. I can't wait!! We're even gonna ride the motorcycle to head downtown. It's going to be lots of fun. :)
Fri and Sat is more riding with my friend to get her to practice before her road rest. (Can't believe I didn't practice at all between the closed circuit test and the road test when I got my licence so many years ago!!)
It feels like the motorcycle sitting was the perfect opportunity for me to ease my way back into it and be ready to buy my own next year.
Thursday, July 17, 2014
So I coworker of mine is going away on vacation. And I'm babysitting his motorcycle while he's away :D
I went to the store yesterday to buy an extra helmet for my partner, a mesh jacket and gloves for myself. And today I drove the motorcycle from my office to our house.
I hadn't driven in so long, I was pretty nervous but it went super well.
So well that after supper my partner decided to come with me on a little errand to the atm. It was just a short easy ride to get used to the motorcycle on top of getting used to riding with a passenger.
We caught a little rain but it didn't last so we decided to go get an ice cream at our favorite spot.
Overall it was a very laid back ride and I'm getting more and more used to the motorcycle so it was a lot of fun. We're planning to go to Lewis Black's show during the just for laughs festival next week riding the bike instead of renting a car.
This weekend I will meet up with another coworker who's learning to ride because the way the licensing process works here is that once you have done your close circuit exam, you have a temporary licence which only allows you to ride with another rider if that person has had his or her real licence for at least 2 years.
Since I've had mine for close to 10 years without ever owning a bike lol I will be my coworker's buddy so she can practice before her road test.
I am also planning to attend a family dinner over the weekend. I haven't told them I'd be riding a motorcycle to get there!
So yeah I'm pretty excited. + my partner told me it is now time. That I just have to make a budget so I can buy my own motorcycle next spring. :D
I'll try to attach the pic of my temporary baby that I took on my phone...
Monday, July 14, 2014
So our lil cat brought a live mouse in our house... then decided the mouse wasn't worth killing. So while my partner jumped on the couch I tried catching the mouse with a broom and dustpan.
Missed my only good chance and couldn't find the mouse again even crouching with a flashlight to look under couches, piano etc.
My partner nicknamed the mouse Mickey. But so far no new sightings of Mickey.
I'm hoping he/she found her way back outside but how can I ever make sure?
Stay tuned for new developments in the Mickey saga!!
Friday, July 11, 2014
OK so I had lots of content that just disappeared on me :((((
I'm doing well, getting ready for the next step. In my case it'll involve a psychologist with a background in nutrition. I want to improve my relationship with food on top of getting help dealing with other personal issues.
Starting a motorcycle fund to finally buy one. Veeery excited about that! Had my licences for over 10 years I think but only drove here and there without ever owning one.
Lots of friends got their licence + bike this year so I'm incredibly jealous! Now is the time! :)
Monday, June 23, 2014
The youngest stepchild is finishing high school!
And although I am the evil stepmother to that child (according to her mind you ;)), you have no idea how happy I am that I've reached the beginning of the end!
As per agreement, all I've got left is to pay for 2 years of cegep and then I'm done!!!
I cannot wait to be done being somewhat responsible for a kid who hates me (I'd rather help out the other two!).
It's truly liberating! :D
Or so says my partner... lol
Haven't done any workouts besides my normal activities now that we don't have a car. 30k or so biking to Ste-Anne-de-Bellevue to get our groceries at the farmers market. Shorter bike ride for the CSA baskets drop off and biking to work.
Slowly getting back on track with my nutrition though. Finally starting to get a routine with my new job. Just haven't started hitting the gym back...
The plan was to start this weekend + this week but something came up. That something is what officially made me cross over to the dark/rebellious side.
What is it you ask? I got piercings! OK so I had my ears pierced when I was 1 but stopped wearing earrings in my early teens cause my ears kept getting red, warm and swollen no matter the earrings. I'm interested in trying surgical steel or titanium eventually though.
But instead of taking such a little step, I went bigger/crazier! Lol
I got both my nipples pierced! I went to x/s tattoo / piercing shop a couple of weeks ago to ask questions. Whenever I asked how painful it is, whoever was answering me hesitated or took a break to think about how to describe it before answering me.
I heard "not a lot", "it just pinches a little" and so on. It's only when I went back last weekend to get it done that I received an honest answer. Zara (or is it Zaara? I'm sorry I really am truly horrible with remembering names) but she said : "it sucks but it's short"
So I felt better prepared to see Les get to work (I highly recommend him btw he's awesome!)
So yeah after a little chit chat Les went to work and it did hurt! Lol its only after doing my other nipple that Les said most people just got 1 done and came back at another time to get the other one done so kudos to me! (Not sure if he was just saying that to be nice, but in any case, thanks Les!!)
So yeah, now my partner thinks I'm less of a pussy... lol maybe now she'll believe me when I say I eventually wanna get a tattoo once I figure out what I want and where.
Made my partner laugh a lot telling her how it went. So ever since we're both not really believing it really happened. Until I lift my shirt up lol.
I had been thinking about it for several years but never looked seriously into it to answer my questions. So I guess it's my little mid-life crisis as I'm slowly approaching 40??
Anyways, the pain/sensitivity/swollenness is what has prevented me to get back to the gym. I'm seeing my trainer this week so he'll wip me back into shape! ;)
Only downside being I can't swim for 2 weeks... oh well. *shrugs*
Friday, June 13, 2014
Love the new job, love the new boss and coworkers, but I'm running around a lot and I'm looking forward to being more knowledgeable.
My routine went out the window. I'm trying to bring it back. Haven't gone to the gym nor the pool much and I ate out a lot too...
So yeah, today was my first 5 day week in a long time. Will try to get my as back to the gym next week!
Tuesday, June 3, 2014
New job officially started last week but since the person I'm taking half the workload from was on vacation, it was pretty slow last week compared to this week.
Feels like I got on a treadmill that was already going pretty fast even before I got on! Lol
I think I'm doing alright trying not to face plant from the speed... lol pretty fast paced but a lot of fun as well so all is good.
Looooove my new boss. Sad to think I might "lose" him with the major reorganization they're doing but such is life...
Technically I'm back on the 5 days a week wagon now. But since I'm taking Thurs and Fri off for my in-laws visit part 2, it's giving me a lil breather.
Thursday, May 29, 2014
They left yesterday to visit other people. We'll see them Sat for a family lunch but they won't come back to stay with us until next week for the last 3-4 days of their trip.
It's honestly going well. Had a couple of hiccups but nothing we weren't expecting so we were able to avoid escalation!
It is really helping that I'm taking days off work when they're around. Helps both my partner and I stay grounded and "manage" the in-laws better instead of me working all day only to come at night to my partner anxious and/or upset and spending the evening trying to figure out what happened and cheering her up.
*knocking on wood* so the rest of their visit goes as or more smoothly than the first half!
Sunday, May 25, 2014
Alright so the in laws arrived last night and they'll be with us until Wed. Then we'll meet them in Quebec City for a day by the end of the week and they'll come back to stay with us from the following Wed til the end of their trip.
They're nice and all but they also have hmm I'll just say colourful personalities so it's challenging at time. And since I'm really not the kind of person to own all the cool top of the line things on earth well that means I've opened myself up for judgement lol
Oh well. Mother in law's husband already stated he wouldn't be able to live with the image quality of the hockey game I watched on the projector last night. After that I kinda lost track of what else I'm doing wrong lol
I know they're meeting up with someone this afternoon so that'll give us some alone time. Hoping they'll have more plans on their own so we don't have to entertain them too much! (Yeah no I'm no entertainer at aaaaaaall)
Thursday, May 22, 2014
So I got rid of my scale. It's been one of the best decisions I've made in my life. Of course my trainer and dietetician are weighing me when they see me but I don't look and they don't tell me.
I feel sooooo good since I threw away my scale. Finally freed myself from the number. I know I'm heavier than I was when I first met my partner (read : I'm not done losing the weight I gained in the first 2 years of being with her lol) but right now I feel I am the fittest I've been in years!
I feel great and keep pushing myself more and more. Feel great in my body. Noticed changes in my muscle definition in my arms and legs +even my thighs, belly and butt!
When you think about it, getting rid of the scale makes so much sense. I don't know if it's the same for men, but as a woman there are so many factors affecting my weight on a daily basis that it's pretty useless to try and compare. Just think as the whole hormonal cycle you go through each month!
The only weigh-driven number I have to look for is the number my life insurance company gave me. They're actually charging me 2$ extra per month because I'm too heavy according to their charts. So I have to reach the weight they say is OK and maintain it for a year to get the surcharge removed.
So my trainer knows when to tell me my weight! Once there though I'll happily go on just knowing my weight during my annual checkup. :)
Wednesday, May 21, 2014
So I got a promotion!! Same employer but different boss and different team.
Bigger salary bracket :D only downside being I'll be back to working 5 days a week. But I had already cleared it with my partner and she agreed it is worth it. So here I go!
It will mean shorter workdays so it'll be a nice change. It'll also help me with my workout routine since it's much easier for me to do my planned workouts on workdays vs weekends. I'll also be able to contribute more in the kitchen in general.
I am very much looking forward to new challenges. Although more changes are in store since my company is in the middle of a restructuration. So I'll see where I end up in the end. Lol
My mother in law and her husband are arriving for a visit shortly. So that's stressing my partner a lil. I'll take a couple of days off to shoulder the load!
Waiting to see the actual numbers for my salary bump :D
Tuesday, May 6, 2014
OK so I've once again failed to update my blog more often lol.
But I'm doing good! Lots of stress but I manage to make it to the gym and keep my eating under relative control.
Like my partner said, we're working on making so many deep changes on so many different fronts it would be completely crazy to expect ourselves to be perfect everywhere.
So I'm appreciating my progress. :)
The weekly circuit training class with my trainer really helps. My legs are getting much stronger. I noticed it during our 30k bike ride this past weekend. I was able to use bigger gears, being less out of breath and better able to keep up with my gf despite our cargo (we did our grocery that way).
We had to put our oldest cat down a little bit over a week ago. He was 14 so not totally unexpected but it really happened quickly (we thought he had a broken leg at first) and out of nowhere so we're still mourning him.
My mom is not doing too well either so I've had to deal with peer pressure to do family stuff (which I haaaaaaaaate) still trying to remove myself from most obligations. It's just hard to make everybody understands I really don't like family gatherings, I'd much rather do little visits (me, my gf with my parents for instance) to really have 1 on 1 quality time instead of group chaos. I'll get my point across eventually!
I'm on the verge of having a very good news. Still working out the details.
Haven't biked much nor swam... but the triathlon is still on! Lol
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
I keep making progress slowly.
Monday I wanted to get 8k Fuel points during my day which I've never done before. It was a busy day but I made it!
It was hard reaching my regular 3200 points yesterday as I was pretty tired from Monday but got that done as well.
OK so we ate restaurant twice yesterday but I've kept my portion under control so I'm glad. That and not having any alcohol. I'm really considering cutting alcohol all together.... I still enjoy the taste but I hate how dehydrated I feel afterwards...
I ordered new road ids now that we cut our home phone. If you want to get some yourself you can go here http://roadid.com/invite/3BHBH-TAF4KKVQQVZ
Will try to update more before my week off ends :)